“Cast your cares on the Lord and He will sustain you; He will never let the righteous fall.” Psalms 55:22
I overthink. It’s part of the introvert than resides within me. So many thoughts swirl around in my head: about my children, my career, my academic pursuits, my love life… What I’ve learnt and continue to reasons within myself is that I am a cheerful, spontaneous and independent woman. My purpose is to live life day by day and try not to worry about tomorrow.
My determined heart and strong willed personality has taught me some life lessons in the spheres of thought in which I engage from time to time. First off there is nothing wrong with deep thinking. There just needs to be a balance of the time where self evaluation needs to be entertained. I read somewhere that mental development comes from certain activities such as baking, knitting, sketching and writing. These activities and more encourage creativity. This creativity is within us and it needs to be activated on a regular basis.
I am a strict mother at times. My sons are afraid to disappoint me and they adore my mother. It is only when you become a parent that you truly appreciate your parents and the sacrifices which they made for you back in the day. Your children behave as how you used to behave when you were a child and everything just goes through a cyclical transformation. Trust in the future they will understand you when they have children of their own. My thoughts become pre-occupied with having more children. Some have reasoned that in this day and age it may be impractical. Some have noted that I am still young and could go again. Then I wonder could I go through that again… and I remember Psalms 55:22.
It is difficult for me to picture myself as anything but a teacher. If they was ever a job to which I was more suited…teaching is it. Discovery learning is my passion. Grades are not everything but the effort taken is what matters to me. For instance, if I have a student who regurgitates everything that is written in book and gets a good grade, I am proud for that student has mastered the skills of knowledge and comprehension. In a similar vein I am elated when the student takes initiative and applies the acquired knowledge to create something outstanding. Do I think about my students? Of course…and I remember Psalms 55:22.
Ironically, my academic pursuits are linked with being a mom and a teacher and my love life. I am at a crossroads in my life which makes the Japanese proverb fall down 7 times get up 8, ring true. On the one hand I could hand in my letter of withdrawal and continue when the children are older and I am more established within my career. On the other hand I can work at it steadily and steadfastly, trying to break it down into manageable pieces. It sounds reasonable… and I remember Psalms 55:22.
Armed with the intent to lay all excuses down, I claim success and hold on to it in all aspects of life: physically, emotionally, spiritually and financially. Life is about creating myself. Leave the past behind and set goals. Break down these goals into quarterly goals and track the progress week by week. List everything which is needed to accomplish these goals such as skills and contacts. Create a vision board and begin a journal. This should be accomplished in the first week of the month.
In the second week, wake up 30 minutes earlier to have a morning routine to jumpstart the days filled with tasks. Adopt a nightly ritual and minimise T.V watching. Embark on a social cleanse…which will be difficult but necessary for overall well being. In the third week, meditate five minutes a day in order to exercise the mind as well as the body. Also try the Pomodoro technique in which tasks are split into 25 minute segments. After the first three Pomodoros, take a five minute break to relax after each one. After the fourth Pomodoro, take a 30 minute break to relax the mind. Also keep in mind that it is essential to do the problem tasks first.
In the fourth and final week, focus more on reading and listening to podcasts. There will be a quest for a professional mastermind whose dialogue will assist in moving forward in your chosen career. Also do one thing that is outside of your comfort zone. Finally encourage acts of kindness. This growth challenge taken from Goalcast will ensure that the year will follow along the lines of Psalms 55:22.
A near and dear friend of mine asked me before he left on a long journey of self awareness: What do you want in life? Here is what I have so far… For my love life I want a partner who gives me passion, honesty, loyalty, effort and time. This person must make me smile and make me feel as I am a priority. In return that same description is what I will give my partner. There is no hurry and we do not have to worry because I remember Psalms 55:22. To cast all of my anxiety, fear and worry on the Lord and He will hold me up because He never lets His children fall and that is a promise. God always keeps His promises.