One of the easiest letters to write is the letter “I”: one vertical stroke from top to bottom and that’s it. There is no fuss, no fancy acrobatics, just pure simplicity. This topic about self was like a recurring dream. First during my devotions the lesson from St. Mark chapter 8 verses 27 to 29, where Jesus asks his disciples after a long prayer session: “Who do people say that I am?” The disciples gave some answers to this probing question: “Some say Elijah or John the Baptist or another prophet.” Jesus asked them: Who do you say I am?” Peter quips in: “You are the Christ!”
The second incident came when my students were examining the topic of personal self. They looked at it from the physical and the emotional self. The physical self was the easy part. All that was needed was a reflected image. However the emotional self, was a little more difficult to ascertain. Some adults are still evaluating their emotional selves, so it might be improbable to think that most teenagers will understand their emotional self while they are still dealing with physical changes.
The question remains: Who am I?
Physically, I am a 5 foot 4 inches tall female specimen of the human race. My complexion is chocolate brown to match the colour of my small almond shaped eyes. Emotionally, I am very sentimental as I attach value to things which were given to me by persons whom I hold near to my heart. I wear comfortable clothing and love to advocate charitable causes. I work well by myself in quiet areas and am known to enjoy a few good books. I love peace so I am not likely to start arguments, unless if it is for a cause in which I believe.
Spiritually, I am a child of God. I adore the things which are right in the sight of God and I abhor all manner of evil and wickedness in any form. Peace and safety surround me because God protects His children from their enemies. I am a steward of God’s Word and sacraments.
Another question remains: Do you know who you are?
If you don’t know as yet, maybe you should spend some time in quiet reflection and afterwards ask: “Who do people say that I am?” Then ask God: “What is my purpose in life?” In that you may find out just exactly who you are.
I know who I am and whose I am: from top to bottom, pure simplicity.
“I didn’t do it.”
“It wasn’t me.”
“It’s not my fault.”
One of my son’s favourite television shows is called: “I didn’t do it.” The show revolves around a group of teenagers who get into trouble and at the beginning of every show the teen declares, “I didn’t do it.” Then they flash back to the situation which got them into trouble in the first place. Although it is very humorous, the television show stimulated my thought process. Human beings are experts at the Blame Game for our ancestors have been playing it since the beginning of time, as it is recorded in the first book of Bible in Genesis chapter 3: The First Sin.
It was the woman’s fault. It was the serpent’s fault. It wasn’t me. I didn’t do it.
Blame is the easy way out. Blame is a childish response. Adam and Eve were childlike in their thinking. They were easy targets. They had life easy: food in abundance, shelter in the Garden of Eden and love and protection from God and His angels. Satan took advantage of that situation. God gave humans the gift of free will. Our ancestors chose their path. They did not listen to the voice of God and were led astray. As a result, the rest of the human race has been reliving their sin through the ages. “I didn’t do it. It wasn’t me. It was (insert name here).”
Our parents, our society, our friends, our children, our past make up the extensive list for the Blame Game. “If only” and “what if” also come into play upon dealing with the consequences. The truth is that responsibility is synonymous with our actions. Stop blaming everyone and everything for our misfortunes and start taking responsibility. It is a relief on the other hand to know that we are not responsible for other people’s reactions and actions. For the book of Revelation in the final chapter reminds us that God will reward each one according to his or her actions.
The Blame Game may appear to be an easier option to escape our problems, but the root of the problem still remains. Once the root exists the problem can grow. Deal with the root of the problem by accepting that the fault lies within. Acceptance allows for the release of the blame and is the first step towards the path of healing. Step away from the sport and games and follow your dreams and aspirations. The Blame Game is the only obstacle standing in your way.
“I did it.”
“It was me.”
“I take responsibility.”
I did not celebrate my 30th birthday. People wished me a happy birthday, but I did not have the usual celebratory dinner. 30 is a memorable year. You are not in your twenties anymore. You stand on the threshold of youth and maturity. Two phenomenal Biblical personalities started awesome works at the age of thirty. Joseph became Prime Minister of Egypt at the age of thirty. Despite the betrayal of his brothers into slavery, the lies of his boss’ wife, who wanted to sleep with him and the feeling of being forgotten in prison, he used his disposition to conquer these overwhelming circumstances. He developed his organizational skills through opportunities offered in prison and the house of his boss, Potiphar.
Another person who stepped out at the age of thirty was Jesus. His life before was basically unscripted until he came to his cousin John the Baptist to be baptised in the Jordan River. Afterwards, he went through his refinement process in the wilderness. Through prayer and fasting in the wilderness for forty days, he overlooked the depressing nature of his situation and persevered. We don’t know how many trials he suffered in the desert but we know that he overcame them with the help of God the Father.
Two weeks before my year of thirty I gave birth to my second son. This experience of being a mother of two boys has been and continues to be very spiritually fulfilling. Just like my biblical mentors of Joseph and Jesus. I have stepped out into areas that I would not have thought to be possible. I am so relieved that I do not have to subscribe to be perfect. I am equally relieved that I am not responsible for anyone else’s decisions but my own. It is so liberating to know that God is in control.I just trust Him with my whole heart. There is no room for worry in my year of thirty for God is before, behind, above and below me. He has given me the blueprint for my life. I had to come through my trials and tribulations to accept my Spiritual Bridegroom and His plans for my life. My dreams are wonderful and exciting. Just release and be free from fear. Embrace the healing power of mercy and grace.